This was soooo messed up and complicated. I love the odd pile of guilt that Colin was here, not comfortable in his own skin, not able to forgive himself (accept himself) and to find an outlet for his sexuality that (ironically) did not make him feel guilty.

It has an odd sort of logic to it with not 'sharing' the experience with another person being somehow acceptable...

But I gotta say, you love to leave the reader with a punch in the gut. That whole B/C scene? raised my hope that maybe... but um, no.

Well done, Nick. very hot. (and worth the ache this tinhatter felt in her belly.)